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Thursday, September 29, 2011

'Hot & Spicy" P.4


I'm dying to taste him...
He would be totally surprised...
This is so spontaneous. I love it! ...
I start to strip down...
I'm moving and grooving to a house mix of R & B, Rap and Hip Hop music...
Leave nothing on but my panties and my cooking apron...
Oh wait, I put on some tube socks...
I don't why, maybe I felt too naked...
I love my music and start shaking my ass ...
There's always music playing in the house...
I'm pumped...
It makes me feel alive...
I hear the doorbell ring...
I get excited! ...
I know it means, that Jared is on the other side of the door...
Waiting to come in ...
So, I quickly rush to the front door...
And swing the door wide open...
There he is...
We just stare at each other...
He gives me a quick glance...
More than just glancing at me...
I know he's taking note of how short I really am...
I don't think he realizes I'm naked underneath...
I laugh robustly...

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Underwater...

Underwater...sometimes it feels like drowning. When you sense your losing control of a situation and all you can do is hope you can reach the surface to take that first breath of air you desire so badly. You knowingly went for that swim because you assume it will pleasant and you got the skills to tread the water. You don't think twice and you certainly don't hesitate. As should be every stroke you take in this life, with tremendous assurance in yourself. Then comes into play outside forces, some good and some not so good. So what do you do? Panic? No...potentially that could mean drowning. As always all you can do is try to go with the flow of the current situation and maybe try navigating the direction somewhat. You may find, not even that, is feasible because what exists... is an energy that you are intertwined with, enveloped in it and a part of. Awareness is your only ally right now. Eyes wide open can be the difference in what you gain from this experience, you might not have asked for. With a grain of salt your taste buds will fill your senses with everlasting memories that will alter your view, imbed opinions and add layers onto you. 
These layers make you who you are....
Make you deep...
Like the ocean...
To get to know you, one must dive right in...
You are there...
Underwater...

-Liz

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

"Hot & Spicy" P.3


I wear my cotton lounge pants...
Low rise, drawstring, hanging off my hips...
Simple tube top...
Cropped hoodie with tummy exposed...
I'm barefoot...
I love to be barefoot...
As a child I use to get yelled at all the time for walking around barefoot...
But every chance I get I still do it...
I'm wearing two pigtails...
I'm feeling young and girlie and vivacious...
Feeling fun...
I really want to be myself when I see him...
Not that I haven't been myself with him...
I want it to be natural...
Everything so far between us has felt natural...
Not forced...
So...
I decided I'm going to see him...
Or let him see me...
The way I would be, if I were lounging if he wasn't coming...
So he can see what I'm really like...
Although, I really would be walking around in my underwear too...
Maybe, I should do that? ...
That could mean an appetizer for me...

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

"Hot & Spicy" P.2


That made me exited...
I love to cook...
Another passion of mine...
I love to feed people...
He, who loves to eat with gusto shows me so much...
It shows me passion...
That if he can eat with lust...
He will love me...
With passion...
With lust...
The kind my heart aches for consistently...
Because, in my eyes...
No passion, is no feeling...
No feeling, is not living...
Not living...
Is pointless...
Feeding someone is like loving someone...
Sustaining their soul with what it needs...
That's how I view cooking and loving...
It has meaning...
It has feeling...
It has spice and lots of flavor...
As will this dinner tonight...
Jared will be here soon...
I can't wait to see him...
I decide to keep my look simple tonight...

Friday, September 16, 2011

"Hot & Spicy" P.1



Herbs...
I love the smell of fresh herbs...
Intoxicating...
I'm prepping ingredients...
For my sous chef...
You see...
He's the closest person to me...
In my life right now...
He's dying to get into my kitchen...
I'm not quite sure how to take that comment...
Literally or figuratively...
Well...
He badly wants to learn how to cook...
I think he wants to learn how I mix my spice...
And, taste my spice...
I find his desire adorable...
He faithfully watches the food network...
Absorbing all the chef shows he can watch...
For as long as we've been friends...
We've never actually hung out with each other in our own places...
So, I finally invited him over for dinner...
A dinner we would both cook together...
He was so excited...

Vacay...

 Vacay...Yes I finally get one! I won't tell you when I took one last, you wouldn't believe it anyway. 
So...My subtlety and tact will have left the building by jumping on a plane later today. There is nothing subtle about the way I'm feeling right now. We shall see what I may encounter on this trip. I may have to forget all about my image, all about my "rules" and just go with the flow. The wheels in my brain are turning and churning much more than it should at times and I'm already trying to work out in advance what could, should or may not happen. Over thinking and attempts at creating some sort of plan will lead me to get frustrated...so I'm not even going there. My frustrations will only evoke anger in myself, and I may do something rash and regrettable. For once, I'm going to have a good time WITHOUT thinking and planning every last detail. I'm going to let go and be spontaneous!
I will return very refreshed, energized and ever more creative!!!
Subtlety and tact...
You find them...
I'm on vacay...
-Liz ; )

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Awry??? ...


Awry??? ...Are you wondering why your life feels awry sometimes? It could be a certain attitude from which your whole being is hanging, as though off a cliff. Something from the past may be haunting you, or the present, stopping your future from evolving. Teetering...you don't know how you got that close to the edge. You may need a little quiet contemplation or noisy wild distractions, to get the right perspective - but it will be very much worth it. Usually emotions will run high during times like this but you could potentially begin to feel more optimistic, more self-confident, and good-natured about the possibilities in your life...if, the strong arm of a friend reigns you in from the fall. This should...could, make you greet life with a fresh attitude, and make it easy for you to forget the mistakes of the past. Okay, so maybe not forget, but forgive yourself for making them...we're only human, beautifully imperfect. Once you do this, you will be able to envision bright new avenues for growth and fulfillment. So what if you veered off the planned course and your contorted, twisted and a bit distorted.
Perversely askewed? ...
Amiss? ...
Awry? ...
Or is driving on a crooked road more exciting than a straight one?...
Uhuh, I thought so...
-Liz ; )



Sunday, September 11, 2011

In View Of...


In view of.. some apprehensive thoughts, let's review this potential problem. You have a niggling doubts, that consume the back of your mind to no avail. You may not even be able to pinpoint exactly what they are, but you will have a fair idea if you push it to the forefront of your priorities. Take the time to uncover this matter before making any decisions...whatever the arena, whether it be love, relationships or career. Your mind is consumed with a variance of these thoughts. You may even think that you have lost out on some level. You may even think that
 it has to do with what another has done to you, but it could be what you have done to yourself. As a result, there may be issues that have arisen recently or frequently. Have you stopped to think, that you have not been true to your own beliefs? That you may have sold yourself short on some level? Meaning...take ownership for all your actions, especially the bad ones. You can't change what's done and over. However, investing more time in making amendments, new plans or decisions could change the view drastically. It may be hard to figure out the right move, especially if you feel frustrated as to where you are headed in life just now. Have faith, give yourself some credit and time before you throw in the towel. Remember tomorrows another day and a new perspective. 
Persistent annoyance and anxiety is pointless I'd say...
In view of...
All these points...
Change the view...
-Liz

Friday, September 9, 2011

My Jewels...

My jewels...Precious Jewel, my new niece...yes, that is her given name. At first I thought, why can't she have a normal name? Sometimes I feel we just don't think when we give children their names at birth. Than again, maybe we do. Indeed, we are all precious at birth. Females are extra special, no? They in fact will continue to bring luscious fruit into this world, keeping the world going round. It made me really think once again about how precious it is to give away your love. I know, you guys are probably like, jeez she's getting sappy on us. Lmao...not at all. Just saying, it's a gift. One that should not be taken for granted is all. Even if given casually. You see, it means you have taken a small piece of them with you, so to speak. Casual sex can be great, but more than casual sex is even better...more intense, more satisfying, so much more...is all. In my eyes... all relationships sparkle. You should always take the opportunity to talk with all the right people in all the right places, then take the choice about where you are going within that connection . You call the shots, so call the best ones. You have more influence than you care to acknowledge. It's always a good time to take care of yourself emotionally, so that you may thrive in those connections, outside of yourself. Take time to look ahead and see what's lacking in your chest of jewels. Keep them polished and remember that to share them is a gift.
Precious...
Are my jewels...
-Liz

Thursday, September 8, 2011

The Not So Average Girl...

 
I am not the average girl...I am and, I am not. I am the woman next door. However, I am willing to do whatever it takes to get the person of my dreams as interested in me as I am in them.  Even if this involves doing or saying anything outrageous, I am willing to go the extra mile. I don't care what the odds are or how big a gamble it is. Ladies...guys...are you right there with me? I know there's a bunch of you that think this way too. The thought of losing does not even faze me and failure is not an option. Have I failed in the past? Absolutely!!! I choose not to live with that mindset, that's only a setup for it. My biggest and most intense focus is communication and getting in touch with feelings, with those closest to my heart.  This has been a perfect time in my life to brainstorm with others, share ideas and set long term goals...as it pertains to love, life and career. Maybe a close friend in my life is the person of my dreams and I don't know it. Maybe, I haven't met them yet and through networking and new endeavors...he shall come along. We shall see. What I do know, is that he will be just as unique in deep ways. Ways that will speak to my heart and soul.
Not the average guy...
Will cross my path...
To meet...
The not so average girl...
Until then...
-Liz

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Sex, Love and Money...

 Sex, love and money...the equilateral of life, I believe. The world revolves around these three musketeers, indeed. I...being the fourth. I am trapped in this triangle, undeniably impacting every degree of my life. My inventive side is...the real love of my life! These creative juices are at full throttle, it craves stimulation, hoping to make a startling discovery or breakthrough soon. What does that mean? I'm not quite sure...but I'll be ready for it!  My sexual side..the energy that surrounds me at the present,  lies in desires for real passion and romance, stored for me somewhere, with someone special, reserved for the right time.  I am willing to take any opportunities to have some fun and feel alive again. Beginning to feel implosive if I don't. My inclination is to act on some of the wilder impulses and desires that consume me from time to time. I expect my strong sense of adventure will make this a very interesting time in this phase of my life, especially with meeting new people and forming new relationships. My Self-preservation side...the anxiety here plagues me...a restlessness, for lack of a better word. The need to survive solely based on my livelihood. This I know to be a cycle I need to circulate through , in order to retrieve a positive return on investment. I'm patient, this one requires time,  consistent effort and nurtured skill sets. This will bring to fruition the real growth in my life...and the equilateral formation of myself. 
Damn!...
Then comes...
The sex, love and money...
My life will require...
-Liz

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Libido Types...

10 Libido Types

Knowing what intrinsically drives us sexually is vital to achieving long-term satisfaction. Try to identify your own and your partner's and use is as a springboard to sorting out the kind of sex you both need to keep you interested long term.

1. Sensual: sex is an expression of love. Emotional intimacy is the most important thing.
2. Erotic: sex needs to be intense and lusty. Low-key "ordinary" sex is OK but it needs to be punctuated with some extraordinary sessions.
3. Dependent: sex is used as stress release and you become agitated if denied it.
4. Reactive: sex is about giving not receiving. It can be based around a low sex drive or you need to see your partner aroused to become aroused yourself.
5. Entitled: you have little understanding of your partner's sexual needs-just believe you're "owed" a certain amount and type of sex.
6. Addictive: sex is something you find so appealing, it's hard to manage. It controls you rather than the other way around and you're prone to cheat.
7. Disinterested: sex provides little pleasure and you rarely desire it. It can be the result of distressing sex that's quelled any natural desire.
8. Stressed: sex is worrying. You feel under pressure to perform and worry you're inadequate.
9. Detached: sex is good but competing distractions put you off and you emotionally withdraw from your partner and sex.
10. Compulsive: sex is only satisfying if you follow a specific ritual. Fetishists fall into this type of libido. It's selfish sex that involves little connection with your partner.
(Excerpt from: Secrets of a Supersexpert, Tracey Cox)

Monday, September 5, 2011

A Promise...

A promise...is a promise. Rest assure that your word has value until you show me otherwise. Most of us have positive intent on doing the right thing, most of the time. I believe in that. Keeping your word can be a difficult thing because nothing worthwhile comes easy. It takes will power, strength of character, determination, desire and integrity. If what you're striving for is truly what you want, there will be no issues in achieving this. Desire is very powerful and a driving force in us, as human beings to accomplish almost anything and most everything. So why are promises constantly broken? As time evolves, so do we. So it's only natural that our priorities and desires change with that. Naturally our first reaction may be to avoid being honest and upfront with those we care for, because you may not want to hurt them. Confrontation is not an enjoyable situation but again, nothing worthwhile is. Meaning...if it is best for you to move on and forward than you must do what you have to do, to make it happen. If you approach the situation straightforward, it will be understood by others even at the cost of causing them pain. We all deserve to hear it directly and in a timely manner, because both parties are impacted...the one making the choice and the one the choice affects.  And...together, come to an agreeable  understanding and/or  game plan to possibly keep commitments or alternate solutions. Think twice before making commitments, you know in your heart and mind you really can't keep.
A promise...
Is your word...
Is your intent...
Is a Promise...

-Liz

Sunday, September 4, 2011

"Press Pause"






I declare war!

Wait...
Press pause

Maybe...
Command rogue!

I think...
Free will dismissed
Caused to collapse
You
Must be AWOL
From
Your mind

What I see...
Is that
You
Talk smack
Which, is what I should have done
To your face
When
You grabbed my ass
But
Injury to insult
Would have elongated the battle
I know
You were armed
To
Win the war
I've seen what they do
To
Prisoners of war
Hell no...
I won't go!

You say...
How lame
Are
Women
As they wonder
Why men choose desertion
Shirking female hazardous duty
After...
Giving it up on the first date
Why would she be considered?
As a viable partner
When
She lacks self worth
In view
Of

Wait...
Press pause
Bravo
Applause
Not!
It....
Takes two to tango
Alpha


Yet...
You push and beg
Able to tame
Even
The greatest lioness
As if...
Your life depended on it
Convincing her that you
Are
The prey
But
Devoured her, like it was your last meal
Tossing her aside
Like...
Leftover scraps
You no longer cared to view
Completely disgusted
On
A full belly

You say...
To the pack
Of spunk less hounds
You call your friends
How...
You nailed, that piece of ass
Persuading her that
You
Were only hungry for filet mignon
Knowing, she delectably desired
Your flavor too
But...
She must, have confused your hearty scent
With something more savory
Since
Felines avoid canines
 Tripe?
Yellow bellied, at that
Post
Hit and run
White flag waving
Came your victory dance
Yet another battle won
Notch on your collar
Viciously spiked
As....
You bitched slapped
Each other's paws in a round
Of
High Fives

Wait...
Press Pause
You see...

Strength
Exists In her
It takes courage
Moral fiber
To...
Risk yourself
For
One who claims
Trust, loyalty and love
Turning your back
During an insurgence
Resilient
To...
Fight the enemies
Including your strongest adversary
Who
Advantageously
Knows your weak spot

Wait...
Press Pause

You see...

Wait...

You don't see...
That's the point,
Bitch!

(Excerpt from:
"Life as a Brikhaus"
Poetic Reflections of the Heart...
The Pain and Passion of Love)
Yet to be published...
 

Saturday, September 3, 2011

Wicked Weird Fact #11

People, mainly men, who join "diaper clubs" suffer from anaclitism: needing to wear or use objects usually used by infants-pacifiers, diapers, rattles- before they can become aroused. Less common but difficult if you're a churchgoer or public speaker is being a homilophiliac:someone who becomes sexually aroused while listening to or giving sermons or speeches. Interestingly, this can be traced back to ancient religious services that were in fact designed to arouse devotees sexually in preparation for the orgies that followed. In modern times, it's thought guilt plays a big part in producing this passionate response: if someone's lecturing passionately against-the sins of sex, it can cause the audience to be more aroused than if they were watching porn. Anything forbidden becomes intensely desirable.