What You Seek...

What you seek...you seek from me? Are you sure? How do you know? I can fulfill, a great many things. Maybe, we are meant to fulfill certain circumstances for each other at this time in our lives. I always feel that when we meet people, there is a point to it, there is meaning to it. A friendship, a love, a mentor, a counselor a teacher...a whatever it is...IT IS, for you both at that moment. It's unique and special regardless if your paths cross and then continue onward without each other. I'm that much richer because I met you and you me. Unknowingly seeking...we go through life and yet, the minute we meet we sense it was supposed to happen and we knowingly understand the why's. Interesting, I think. No, I know. Kind of deep, huh? Even deeper...if you get me!
What you seek...
Is me...
What I seek...
Is you...

-Liz

Change this...

 

Change this...Why again? For you? When does it stop? Wait, wait, wait, wait... It doesn't work that way! I''m not changing who I am! And...I don't want to change you either! I want to understand you. What makes you tick. Your way. Your behavior. Your idiosyncrasies. Your thought processes. I don't want you to stop being you! I dig you, remember? I'm not the chic who wants to change her man. What's the point of that? If I was drawn to you than I need to trust my own judgment, right? The chic who tries to change her man has issues. The perfect man does not exist, nor does the perfect woman. The perfect man or women for you, on the other hand is a different story. But, I want my man and my friend to make the small important changes that require us to grow together. Which means...I'm making them too. The desire to do this, is natural and selfless because there's nothing you want more than to be with this person and nurture "US". If you have to sell yourself...your shit out of luck. If it feels like effort... your shit out of luck. If one of you puts more into it than the other...your shit out of luck. Meaning...You need to have the attitude...I don't have to sell myself. You either dig me or you don't. I either dig you or I don't. Otherwise...keep it moving. Why be with someone who doesn't reciprocate the same feelings and same actions? Somebody out there wants you...all of you! This shit is not going down!!! 

Change this...

How about the direction of my body leaving? ...

-Liz

Viva La Verve! ...

 

Spirit...is energy, your individual energy, strong core of a life force. It's the energy you give off to others and the force that drives you, whether your behind the wheel or not! Hopefully, you are driving! I was touched by a conversation with a friend. Someone, also going through a divorce. Who was inspired by my drive, self motivation to move forward and courage. That upon meeting me, it was apparent I had a spark and this energy that somehow inspired and gave a sense of awe. Now, I don't mention this to brag. We never see ourselves as others see us. It was enlightening for me, to maybe realize that there was some validity in what was said. Humbly, I took it with a grain of salt but none the less, I took in what was said. I held back my tears because, I don't know, I just did.  It was music to my ears to hear someone say I was having an impact on them. Possibly inspiring them and making them feel like we can accomplish anything we desire. Not too long ago I was at the bottom of the hill, worse...I was in the manhole in the street at the bottom of the hill. Almost ready to give up and suffocate under that heavy lid I couldn't open. Everyday I have to dig deep and push forward.  I feel like I'm so far from where I need to be and have to reach. I have good days and not so good days. The key is to focus on each day, making the most of it productively and personally. Meaning...it's about the journey, destination is important but what you gain on the journey will surely impact how you arrive at the destination and whether or not you will be prepared to make the most of it. Your core, your energy, your life force, your spirit...is amazing and unique. 

Feed your soul...

Nurture your mind...

Love your heart...

Free your spirit...

It's all you really have in your life that matters...

-Liz

Scattered...

Scattered...No bueno, as a friend would say... not at all. I can feel it coming too. I'll cut myself off from people, before I get down right hard core BIATCH! If I don't get that far and you're unlucky enough to deal with me. You are definitely asking yourself WTF? Scattered usually means I'm a hurricane of emotions, usually triggered by someone, or maybe something, but usually someone. You see, I wear my heart on my sleeve...literally. I have zero tolerance for nonsense...meaning, the stupidity of people who don't think, think about their actions, think about their words and therefore don't think about the repercussions...period. If I attempt to reign in my emotions, thoughts, feelings, frustrations for too long...it gets me riled up to a point where my crossfire is deadly. I will cater my style of communication to the individual I need to speak with...however, if that person can't handle the topic, themselves, or even me, than it's a wrap. I will stalk you like chosen prey. The attack will be short and powerful and there will be no mercy. Life is to short to bury crap deep inside you. There are enough toxins out there causing us damage, that we don't need to create our own and bury ourselves in shit. For what? And, for who? I don't think so...unless, you have earned my trust, loyalty and love, than you're golden.

Otherwise...

You will be scattered...

By hurricane Liz...

= ) Later...

Aglow...

Aglow...emitting, radiating light...for me, I mean love. That's how my heart desires to feel always. Would that be ludicrous to strive for? I mean...I don't expect to be feeling happy every minute of every day. But...In retrospect, thinking of my life and all the struggles I've had, blessings were still more abundant. I don't like holding on to negative feelings or resentment. It's too damn draining! I believe what you emit in your life is returned to you. Yeah...what goes around comes around. I'm no angel and I've made plenty of mistakes.  Whatever...it is what it is. We move on, that's all we can do. I do recall that when I was my most positive, most sincere, most willing to do what I had to do...everything worked to my advantage. No and's, if's or but's, not one!!! In that state of mind, you are open to possibilities because you can clearly see them and thus react to them. Which means, you allow the positive flow to continue it's cycle. Positivity breeds positivity! I want to be all over that...all in that. You feel me? You do, feel my love!!! I'm feeling yours too!!!

When you feel aglow...

Don't forget me...

-Liz

Art for Pancreatic Cancer...

Dedicated to my father in law that passed away in 2006 of pancreatic cancer.

My sculpture donated to Cablevision to earn money for Lustgarten Foundation and it's plight in finding a cure for this cancer. Let's hope it earns a nice chunk!!!

Liz