The Ache...

 

X...marks the spot where the ache fills me. A sudden panic and overwhelming but, bubbling feeling takes over my mind. That... there are tougher roads ahead, that I know I will still have to face. My heart, a tight knot that attempts to release the tears that my mind refuses to obey.  The battle begins. And...yes, even I get scared and fear failure like anyone else. Innately...I tend to get rebellious by fighting back. Failure to me is not an option... in my eyes. Negative thoughts bring negative outcomes.  I have failed at many things, but I went down fighting. Some people, looked at me and said, "Walk away" and my reply would be, "I can't...I'm not built that way!". Until every attempt is tried...do I then raise my white flag. As I'm waving that white flag...enemy's guard coming down, when they least expect it...I'm right back up attacking the next battle. You see...life is small battles. Every battle under your belt, brings you closer to the end of the war. The peace you seek...shall be confiscated from the enemy!!! And... the wounds you suffered will be left with the shadow of the X...that marked the spot where the ache filled you.

-Liz

Feeling You...

Yeah...I'm feeling you. Think about you, a lot of the time! No joke...I wonder about you too. A man in my future. What you're really like when you're talking to others and not even thinking about me. How tall you are and how I will feel, standing next to you. Your scent and how it will make me react, to breathe it in. The feeling of a hug in your arms. The sensation of a kiss on your lips. What will I see when I look into your eyes. What will a conversation between us feel like? Like old friends? Or like nervous lovers just meeting for the first time? Will, we be looking for cues? Any kind of cues? Or will it be surreal? Will, time pass us by quickly? Will, it feel like a fog because we're taking in so much? Will, we feel those butterflies? Or will that beauty not flutter by us?  Will, we want to part when it's time? Or find reasons to mingle in each others presence longer? Will, we talk and talk and talk? Because, there is so much we want to share? Is what we're feeling a result of a need, that strongly demands being fulfilled or is it truly as natural as it feels? But...I guess I can ask a trillion questions and only imagine what those answers will be. For the real answers will reveal themselves...when the future is my present day and a man in my presence will be. Wondering will be no more. Only the connectivity and our energy will decipher it's relevance in our future. Just take my hand, my friend...all I want is to be feeling you...
Feeling you...
The real you...
-Liz

Temptation...

Mmm Mmm Mmm...DAMN!!! Nothing like temptation just slapping you in the face and saying WTF?
Are you awake B*tch? You sure as hell are now!!! That slap just loosened any clarity from my mind. All I can think about is...drop that damn pen down and stop effen writing gurl! Go have some fun and remember what it's like to feel alive. Think of nothing else... but your damn pleasure! I can't even look anymore...I mean, I could just soak up and soak in all that delicious mouth watering goodness until my core is just a vortex of whirling, twirling, shiny sterling... silver trinkets of love drops. I know the rule of the thumb is men are the visual creatures...but, some of us women are right there with you. Triggered, stimulated, manipulated...longing to eradicate that urge that's completely submersed your mind and body into the state of wanton bliss.
Mmm Mmm Mmm...
Temptation...
Damn!!!
-Liz ; )

For the Benjamins...

All about the BENJAMINS?...Money makes the world go round!!! Why couldn't it just be love? Love is free and infinitely more rewarding...maybe, in a perfect world that would work. Money...a resource that contains the power to influence. Socially recognized for that power and value...thus drawing its response. Except, my response is the opposite. It wasn't always so...but my eyes see through a different hue. Of course, I want what's coming to me, but for survival purposes. Other than that...all it does is complicate the simplicity of what life once was and possibly should still be. Coin? Paper? Plastic? Serious emotional baggage comes with your view of money. Completely based on your life experiences stemming all the way back to your childhood. And...some of us will never be able to let go of the stigma it has on our self worth. Unless, somehow you were fortunate enough and intelligent enough, to get...your personal worth far exceeds the dolla dolla bill y'all!!! Sure...lack of money feels like lack of power...it is. That is the cycle, but in the cycle are patterns. Something...on another level, more controllable. A composite of traits and features...characteristics which in fact we can influence, by our mindset.
I got my mind on my money...
And my money on my mind...
Mind over matter...
Mind over money...
Before...
You lose your mind...
-Liz

Yeahhhh Babyyyyyy....

That's what I'm talking about!!! You put me in that place...that gets me riled up, wrangled up all in your lasso. I'm beginning to think you're a cowboy...yeeee haaa!!! Lips start to pucker like they got a mind of their own. I get perky and start twitching....no teasing allowed!!! It's not fair, unless I can play dirty too...know what I'm saying? Showing off that one arm, one handed strength...no bucking around, unless it's me riding the bull. Yeah, Brazilian style...pierce those heels in, strength in the thighs and stay loose and relaxed...just follow the bull's momentum!!! I gotta go...think I want to buy me some boots, a cowboy hat, a lasso and catch me a bull. Sometimes you need the get up to get the giddy up!!!
Don't mind me...
Just having a moment...
-Liz

A Double Negative...

What you perceive, is just the positive negative of myself. Or is it? Light is dark and dark is light just as... life is black and white? Two wrongs = a right? Logically logic is not always logical? CRITICAL...that's us. The negative element  and the counterpart surrounded by life... a positive.  Never satisfied and always critical, in all aspects of our lives. Go ahead...keep nodding your head. Negate, deny, refuse, oppose, resist, debate, criticize..uhuh, I knew it! Your mind is designating a proposition that denies agreement with me, lacking any positive affirmation. It's all good...at least I am not morphing into a negative tropism...which may be the masses of our society. A big cloud of grey nothingness. Grey is no better...stand your ground. Meaning...impart a strong, positive and vivid impression of your life. To those that truly matter. Yourself first and then, those you love.
On a scale of 1- 10...what are you?
Yeah?
You say a 10?
You better check yourself...
Before you wreck yourself...
You may be a Zero...
Or less then...
Or almost not at all...
Which is...

-Liz