Enshrouded in a
deep obscure sleep
enveloped in
chronic blackness
as if called by
a voice in the shadows,
I awaken to my
own deep crying.
Drenched in the
tears running down my face
sweat seeping
from pores,
body is cold
as a block of
frozen ice,
heaving chest
gasping for air
densely weighted
by emotions .
I am unable to
shake this hold over me,
fear grips me
tight strangling me,
feeling like
near death.
Somehow shallow
breaths guide me in complete utter darkness.
I suddenly see
clearly;
heavy heart
dragging crutches,
weakened by a
long emotional journey;
indeed, a
masking of the truth.
My gutsy galleon
this night
harbors at the
portal of my soul,
setting me free
on a voyage
as the coarse
grind of briny deep awaits me.
Forced to walk
the plank
to dive into the
depths of love’s chaos,
I peer below my
shaking bare feet
past the gentle
flowing of my nightgown,
softening glow
of circling fins,
mesmerized
by the monstrous beauty
of this freshly
painted image,
wetting my
thirsty desire.
I refuse to grab
the crutches
for fear of
sharks fending their next meal.
Baring more pain
than I can handle,
releasing the
shackles
I take
that much needed step,
plunging into
electrifying currents
toward the
longing warm embrace
and desirous
tender kiss.
Gouging deep
into my gut
I gasp for
breath again,
risking sanctuary,
trusting
loyalty.
My spirit
expands, lively clarity
calming my
agony,
alleviating the
pain.
Pain, so fresh and
profound
resurfaced by a
new angel,
I envision from
the deep black
bringing what I
see as the apocalypse.
My nemesis with
the heart of blackness
forced to reckon
with my demons
kept alive and
fed by angst,
two forces tear
me.
My faith is the
test,
allowing my
intuition
to reaffirm a
trusted soul
already in
place,
bringing to
fruition
love again
returned,
soul again
nurtured,
life again to
live.
Halcyon quickly
revisits me;
warmth
engulfs my body
lifting tension,
dissipating into the night
I lean back,
rest my head
against the pillow
closing my eyes.
Sensing graceful levitation,
serenity filling
me once again,
knowing all will
fall into place;
I quickly return
to a tranquil sleep
fiercely
gripping the noose
which tightly
reigns around the shoulders of my courage.
