Checked out...indeed it appears that way sometimes. I'm peering in for a touch-base. You would think, that it would put me in a sour mood, but my current state of affairs only creates more introspection. The irony is, everyone I'm connected to seems to be in the same state. Checked out for sure!!! Hmmm, current state of affairs for all? Sign of our times? I don't know...or maybe it seems that way to me because I'm not in a relationship like I'm use to being in, and as a single entity the saga of my life feels like new chapters every month, sometimes every week. It reflects that everyone is determined to do the opposite of everything that jives. Understand...everyone needs to do what's best for them, just as I would, just as I do. My mind directs me inward and I continue to reflect more and more on more personal life, taking stock of it's direction and debating whether it's where I want to be. My mind tearing and splitting in several directions, distracting me from my primary focus... me! Contradictory? Yes, but I mean my focus away from my livelihood, my craft. Thoughts of the past and choices made are prominent and eminent in impacting that, which will reach the chopping block. Necessary and sometimes left with no other choice. Could be hard to figure out the next move.