Wild Child

Wild Child

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Sexy Soufflé: Part 5


What do you mean? He can’t even take five minutes?…
I know there are  sous chefs back there…
I’m so annoyed right now…
I throw money on the table and decide to get up…
I walk toward the bathroom and go in…
I look in the mirror and collect myself…
I don’t know why, but I’m so offended…
I put on some lipstick and fix my hair and think to myself…
Whatever…
I turn in the direction of the door and walk out…
Something comes over me…
It’s instinctual and spontaneous…
I look to see where the kitchen is and decide that’s where I’m headed…
I peek in and see the chaos…
Everyone is running around trying to get something done…
I try to figure out who the head chef is…
Can’t tell…
I slip in and just step to the side of the door…
I keep watching…
I feel like I’m watching everything in slow motion…
But it’s the opposite, super fast…
There is one who seems to be giving direction to the others…
He’s tall and slim with olive skin and dark curly hair…
I stare at him in admiration…

Monday, February 27, 2012

Sexy Soufflé: Part 4


I taste the soufflé, Mm mm….
Amazing, light, fluffy and crispy on the outside….
The Chateaubriand melts in my mouth it’s so tender…
I wrap myself into just eating my meal and savoring every bite…
It’s better than sex…
OK not really, but it’s close…
I think I need to compliment the chef…
I know I do…
He has magical hands…
I notice the waiter weaving in and out of tables and somehow I try to get his attention…
I wave my arms around and catch his attention…
I ask, “Is there any way I can talk to the chef?”…
“Is there a problem with your meal?”…
“On the contrary, the meal was amazing and I wanted to tell him directly”…
“We are very busy, but I can check for you”…
“Thank you so much,” I reply….
I continue to enjoy the atmosphere and the weather while I wait for his return…
He quickly comes back and replies, “Unfortunately, the chef is too busy, but he would like to thank you for your compliment”….
He disappears into the restaurant…
That’s it? ...
I am so offended right now…

Sunday, February 26, 2012

Sexy Soufflé: Part 3


He walks away…
The bloody Mary is delicious, just like I like it…
There is a couple a few tables over…
They seem very into each other…
Their body language is intimate…
She can’t stop smiling, and he can’t take his eyes off of her…
There is an excitement and energy between them…
Love….
Or is it lust? ...
Can’t tell at this point…
It makes me long for a man, a companion…
Good meal and some good sex would make for a perfect day…
Can’t seem to stop thinking about it…
Sex, that is…
Waiter interrupts me…
“Would you like another drink?”…
“Sure, that would be fine. Just bring it with my lunch.”…
“Your lunch will be ready momentarily”…
He walks away again…
He’s on his toes, this one…
Interacting with everyone and staying busy…
Before you know it, he’s back with my meal…
“Here you go, enjoy. Is there anything else you need?”…
“No thank you”…
I look at my plate. It looks divine and smells delicious…

Saturday, February 25, 2012

Sexy Soufflé: Part 2


I will always be how they perceive me. I could tell you stories about that alone…
But what’s interesting is…
I even perceive myself differently based on my moods, my look, and my feelings…
We are interesting creatures, human beings…
My thoughts continue to wander until the waiter interrupts me…
“Good afternoon”…
“Hi, how are you today?”…
“Very well, thanks. What can I start you off with?”…
“Bloody Mary would be great, extra spicy, extra twist of lime and use Grey Goose, please”…
“Do you know what you’d like to eat for lunch yet? ...
“No not yet, need a little more time”…
“No problem. I’ll get your drink”…
I look at the menu….
So many choices…
I feel like something hearty and classic…
Some time passes…
The waiter returns with my drink…
“Thank you,” I say…
“Have you decided what you’d like?” ...
“Yes, I’ll have the potato cheese soufflé with chateaubriand”…
“Very nice choice. How would you like your steak?” ...
“Medium rare, please”…

Friday, February 24, 2012

We are Desire...



"We are desire. It is the essence of the human soul, the secret of our existence. Absolutely nothing of human greatness is ever accomplished without it. Not a symphony has been written, a mountain climbed, an injustice fought, or a love sustained apart from desire. Desire fuels our search for the life we prize. Our desire, if we will listen to it, will save us from committing soul-suicide, the sacrifice of our hearts on the altar of "getting by." The same old thing is not enough. It never will be."
-JOHN ELDREDGE

Red Hot...


Red hot... Blazon... Pent up... Deeply unhinging... Burning passion..... Consuming me! A moth to a flame... intrigued and drawn. No matter how hard I try I can't keep away; my reserved quietude irresistibly drawing others in to my inner circle, and I to theirs.  I am searing my wings against the heat of my own soul. Exploding sensations becoming the inexplicable nature of a crackling aura...MINE. Desires- sharing cracked flaws, bursting all self containment, virtually silent flames converting into a blazon tinging emotional expansion. Meaning...opening up to larger issues, stronger feelings and an unlocked heart. Instigating and appearing irrational, being berated and even praised for just following instincts. One chapter closing in a relationship; partnerships ending, altering and forcing new beginnings for essential changes to occur.  A long overdue opportunity on the horizon awaits; a necessary path to a more productive course. It's simple...follow the heart; when all those involved become more certain of what they want, they all can work together on conflicting goals, which are not really conflicted. There is no getting through a fiery blaze without some minor or epic burns. 
Disruption and chaos...
Reigniting appreciation for life...
Heightening love...
Blazon...
Red hot... 

-Liz


Thursday, February 23, 2012

Sexy Soufflé: Part 1


I’m sitting and observing the crowd as they walk by…
It’s a beautiful sunny day…
I’m extremely content at the moment…
Woke up this morning in a glorious mood and decided to venture out for the day solo…
So the city it was for me…
Grabbed a quick cup of Spanish espresso with a dash of milk and a piece of toasted French baguette with Manchego cheese…
The espresso I’ve been drinking every morning since I was a kid and the Manchego I learned to eat while visiting Madrid…
Was never a big breakfast eater, but now I’m starving…
It’s about 1 o’ clock and this little quaint restaurant is hopping with people…
Never ate here before but I fell in love with the little outdoor area covered in umbrellas and small little tables…
It felt quaint…
Shaded, but still lots of light…
I have spring fever right now…
One of my favorite times of the year…
Decided to follow my mood and wore a cute flowery dress…
It has buttons all the way down the front. A little cleavage is showing. It’s light blue with colorful small flowers but nothing over the top…
Never been much of a flower print girl…
It goes down to my ankles and hugs my curves…
The high heel wedge espadrilles with straps, tie around my ankles and just make the outfit…
Feel girly, delicate, and sweet…
Wearing my hair loose and slightly wavy…
My hair color is brown with caramel highlights…
It looks more golden in the sunlight…
Every few years, I change my hair color, makes me look different somehow…
I guess that’s the point…
People always think my ethnicity is different than what I am…

Monday, February 20, 2012

Promise ...

 
Is that you? ...

I just want to find...(him)

There's nothing I won't do...

I give my all to you...

I mean everything I say...

I would never hurt you...

I promise...

Is that you? ...

Thursday, February 16, 2012

All Work & No Play...


All work and no play...Well, that's me right now!!! Lol...No bueno, as a friend of mine likes to say.  I promised myself I would never fall into that pattern again. Yet, here I am repeating the same damn mistakes. I'm so compulsive sometimes,  or is it obsessive? Hmmm, I thinks it's both and it's ridiculous! This will be a year of major changes for me on a personal level, I can feel it. Finding it necessary to break away from my usual routine.  Schedules, deadlines, timetables, excuses and any dead weight holding me down. I need stimulation, lots of fun and loosening up even more than ever. I need to relax and remind myself, there are things out of my control and as such no point in getting hot, all worked up and tearing my hair out. I'm going to just sink back and allow things to fall into place as they must. My mood dictates experimenting, trying new things. Offbeat and original excite me, inspire me. Seriously, I need to get an even better life!!! By all means, it's not crappy but I want more! I need more! I will get more! Cause what Liz wants, Liz gets!!!
Discovery...
Inventiveness...
Spontaneity...
All play & no work...
Hahaha, we shall see...

-Liz ; )

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Cause and Effect...

Cause and effect...expressing emotions is necessary, to repress any is unhealthy. Ironically, in any extreme emotional state logic gets thrown out the window because we're driven by the passion of that emotion. Controlling emotions takes skill unless there is a denial of that emotion. I question whether we can really control emotions anyway. Isn't that what makes it an emotion? That it's not driven by logic? But something much deeper and more powerful existing within us. Every individual has to own their emotions because it has an impact on others. Life has taught me that we do not have a right to question someone's feelings. If they have it and own it, we must respect it. Anyone with any intelligence will try to understand. By all means that doesn't mean we have to agree with it but we have to acknowledge it. It is legitimate. Imagine you shared your feelings and they were completely disregarded. How would that make you feel? Sometimes rules are meant to be broken, but relationships are like eggs, once they are broken they are never the same again. Unconventional pressure may be a good thing or not. It depends how far you want to stray and is it far enough you won't be able to come back. Expression and speaking the mind may be challenging and unnerving to yourself and the ones you're close to. Surges of emotions feel like a storm one minute and blue skies the next. It's usually getting carried away in the storms that blows you in a direction that has ill effects.What does this all mean? It means, we are a reflection of each other. For example, I give off a certain energy and you will respond/react to me accordingly. I may not realize my affect on you but it exists nonetheless, or I may. Point being it's a chain reaction. Every interaction you have with another person involves this concept. Are you in tune with it? Probably not. Can you be? Sure. Depends how strong this energy is, how important this person is and your own self awareness. 
Keep your mind active and sharp...
Find compromises...
Use the power of good reasoning...
Tighten your focus...
No escaping...
The cause...
And effect...

-Liz

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

...Body Rockin'



MMMMM…
Baby Boy

How…
you SMACK me on the lips
with that juicy KISS
pull me in close
rub me HARD
wrap me in your arms
BODY against BODY
and…
tightly LIFT my hips

You make me FEEL, SoOoO…
LusciouSSS

Squeezing me TIGHT
HEAT taking flight
like a hound with a scent
you instinctively trek
nose SWEEPS my skin
reaching my sexy neck
LIPS touching down in my nook
oh baby…
that’s a sweet SPOT… you just took!

You make me FEEL, SoOoO…
ScrumptiouSSS

My defenses have dropped
feeling WEAK in the knees
WARM lips keep treading
I can’t believe…what a TEASE!
intensity rising
no DOUBT,
you aim to PLEASE
groping and grabbing in ACTION
oh mYYY! …
baby boy
I think… I just MET Mini Me
I mean YOU
your buddy
he IS, you see…
EXCITED to meet me!!!

OH…
It’s HOT in here!!!
Or is it just… ME???

DAMN…

Strong hands KNEAD my flesh
as if it were dough
guessing you’re hungry
cause you…
RAVISH this bod
like a hot PIECE of bread
your appetizer? … until you get FED?
pushing and prodding all of my buttons
UNTIL they worked
your mind said…
FUCK the instructions, I’ll figure this out

I don’t NEED them!
as you laughed in your own HEAD
It didn’t take long for you
to get me so…WET!!!
Did you use map QUEST?
if I put money on it
that would be… a winning BET!


You make me FEEL, SoOoO…
DeliciouSSS


YEAH…

What you SEEK
is MY response?
not before long
you will HEAR…those raspy sounds at their PEAK
I don’t recall
How… When… Where…
did my clothes go?
this feels REAL steep
SUAVE mannerisms… SMOOTH moves
in the spell of your DEEP flow
erotic MOANS and sexy NOTES
of which…
only COMES from
my very SPECIAL
privately serenated
LOVE song


MMMMM…
Baby Boy


You make me FEEL, SoOoO…
DizzYYY


OH…
That’s WHAT I’m talking about!!!
How does HE…do that???

You are flying, at the SPEED of a jet
cleary you got SKILLS
In which to NAVIGATE
brilliant blue skies
yet…
causing TURBULENCE
and creating new highs
from ROUGH seas below
and…
massive big WAVES
no floating
no wavering
no BREAKS
I rave
you don’t take it… slow!


MMMMM…
Baby Boy


It’s time for you to MEET me
let’s take it there
we can be FREE
cause
I have been waiting
to ROCK with you…
you know I’m down
too!!!

OH…
Baby boy

Sweaty SKIN
glistening to
DIPS in the hips
grooves in SYNC
meshing of wet and wild LIPS
so pink
no time to think
outrageous tongue TRICKS
quick hand SLIPS
determined in
reaching that DESTINATION
with absolutely
no HESITATION

BABYYY…
Don’t stop!


We’re twisted like pretzels
salt in our GRIND
as I grab your cheeks
you have now… reached my heart
a new location
you will part
thousands of miles
past the land of…MY MIND
talking…below the equator
where HAVOC wreaks
existing heavy rain
and…
intense peaks of HEAT
bodies
DISTORTED and CONTORTED
skipping to our own beat
need to loosen our MANGLED wad
grabbing your pretzel
my new snack and TASTY rod


BabYYY…
Are we there yet?

Reaching far into the terrain
and mountains so deep
thinking
I’m glad you left your sports car
and brought your
rugged jeep
cause
this is not the time to fuck around
with our TASK

of climbing those heights
baby…ALMOST there
Yes!!! …
This is it!!!
Where?
We’ve reached the PLATEAU
Damn…it was bound
oh…
AMERICA, the
beautiful


…Now you can BASK!!!


BABYYY…
I’m coming!!!


Sunday, February 12, 2012

Mischievous Me...


Mischievous me...full of honey and sunshine? Hmm, not always. Why is being naughty, saucy, sultry so absolutely sexy? Or... the feelings when you're the object of someone's intense desire? Or...the obsessing over someone controlling a powerful magnetism over you? I'm not talking about the sensation of newness, this goes deeper than that. It's bracing yourself before that plunging ride at an amusement park. You asked for it, you know what's coming, you're excited! You do it, you don't regret it,  in fact you repeat it! Adrenaline going, heart racing, breath panting! You're alive, so alive. It's the energy...completely and totally the energy. It has this way of manifesting almost as an entity unto itself. It's bold and outspoken. You almost have to plant your feet to the ground so that your head is not in the clouds. That energy puts you on edge, jagged and raw...cuts deep into your being. Can we jar this feeling? It creates a glow,  infectious smile and vivacious spirit. And...can we call it Delicious? Hahaha...It's all about flavor for me!
Honey and sunshine? yes...
Naughty and saucy? yes...
Mischievous me? I guess, that's a yes...
Priceless? Hell Yes! ...

-Liz

Saturday, February 11, 2012

Twister...

 

Life and love are like a tornado
glorious, magnificent, destructive
a force of nature uncontrolled
wreaking havoc to those unsuspecting
Unaware of what’s to bear down…

My continual turmoil
flung around, a rag doll hanging by threads
thrown into a vortex of emotions
unable to decipher which direction
while damaging paths are created…

My core shattered
enduring deep painful inflictions
destroying my ability to adore another
nearly transparent of feelings
until  dust and debris are lifted…

My soul torn apart
developing a rapid downward spiral of confusion
swallowing me, a state of disarray
engulfed in a continuous deafening rumble
while the freight train advances to my doom…

My mind obstructed
warning me, a violent powerful storm to come
feeling no wind or air caress my skin, all is still
I pay no heed to any caution for sanctuary
thus trailing the edge of my delicate life barely protected…


 In a deep depression, covering my head with my hands and arms
refusing to see, hear and scream no evil
hoping to elude the anger, deflect the flying spilth
I see danger, stare at its dark greenish eyes with courage
able to stand fierce against it’s swinging fists,  bruising me…

I survived my deviant distorted Twister of Love
by luck or by destiny, no matter now
favorable conditions allowed me to endure, persist
un-relinquishing my true strength and stability
against the spawning ominous black dragon…

Sunlit skies, a warm summer breeze filled with peace
surround me, calmness and happiness
appreciative, fortunes continue to bestow me
my heart, soul and mind harmoniously playing, same tune...

Life is like a tornado
glorious, magnificent, powerful
a force of nature uncontrolled
bestowing opportunity to those suspecting
Aware of what could be… 


Friday, February 10, 2012

Darkest Before Dawn...


Darkest before dawn...the deep black of the night you fear the most. The fear that grips you tight and makes you feel like your emotions are going to burst from anticipation. The "I can't hold on any longer when is this going to end?" type of sentiment. You know it, you've felt it, we all have...it's called desperation. The end of the rope feeling where you just for once want to let go and spiral down wherever it takes you, anywhere is better than what you feel is necessary to hold on. I don't refer to holding on to past love but in fact holding on to self...to rebuild self.  In all honesty, my biggest struggle is committing to  people I cherish,  my friends. Where do you start? When most of your life you've invested trust with a person you were fully committed to? That you lost yourself in them out of pure love? That even the smallest requests or demands from your friends feel like a vice grip on my head and heart. I'm excavating here, how much deeper before I find this crucial cache? The only way to relieve the pressure is to push them away. Ironically you need them more than ever. As I see it now, a divorce is really a rebirth. Spit out by turbo jets of a hot swirling jacuzzi of turmoil-ed emotions. And...crawling is required before walking. You take those baby steps and the further you go, the more excited you get about where you're headed. This is self awareness, baring my soul in tangible black and white, allowing me to heal. When I started this blog my hopes were to connect with others. My hopes were to inspire others. My hopes were to share my pain. My hopes were to share my art. To share my love of writing. To share of myself. To show you... I am a reflection of you, as you are of me. That we are the same, even in our differences, even in our unparallelled lives that may never directly connect. Except maybe in the deep black of the night, when you've decided it's easier to crawl because the energy has flowed out of the strongest part of your body...your HEART. If you take another baby step and reach your arms out. 
You will see through the obscurity...
You will feel all the hands reaching for you...
You will sense the onset of glowing rays...
When you're past the part, darkest before dawn...

-Liz

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Dig Deep...

Dig deep...meaning, you may have to work for it. It being the required response you are seeking. Something hidden by them? By you? Rifts can heal quickly with mutual trust. Conflicts between duty and pleasure, between the mundane and the yearning for love exist in subtle overtones when you listen intently. Cozy conversations can conjure depths of understanding to new levels between people, to a degree that you maybe never anticipated. Deep, compelling, urgent and energetic...it is there, but you need to draw it out with charm and subtlety. Sometimes the direct approach can ruin the entire gig. At the bottom of it all, is the craving for an intimate connection that will last beyond the moment and well into the future. You may even feel that they are keeping something from you and you keep chipping away until they reveal it all. You wonder why it was kept it in the first place, however you realize it's because a burden didn't want to be placed or a request for assistance, even if it is... or was needed. At this moment, is a good time to spoil each other with comforting affection. This could be the diamond in the rough. Look past the superficial veneers.
See what's inside the one you really desire...
Remember you may have to...
Dig deep...

-Liz