From the Deep Black...

Enshrouded in a deep obscure sleep

enveloped in chronic blackness

as if called by a voice in the shadows,

I awaken to my own deep crying.

Drenched in the tears running down my face

sweat seeping from pores,

body is cold

as a block of frozen ice,

heaving chest gasping for air

densely weighted by emotions .

I am unable to shake this hold over me,

fear grips me tight strangling me,

feeling like near death.

Somehow shallow breaths guide me in complete utter darkness.

I suddenly see clearly;

heavy heart dragging crutches,

weakened by a long emotional journey;

indeed, a masking of the truth.

My gutsy galleon this night

harbors at the portal of my soul,

setting me free on a voyage

as the coarse grind of briny deep awaits me.

Forced to walk the plank

to dive into the depths of love’s chaos,

I peer below my shaking bare feet

past the gentle flowing of my nightgown,

softening glow of circling fins,

mesmerized by the monstrous beauty

of this freshly painted image,

wetting my thirsty desire.

I refuse to grab the crutches

for fear of sharks fending their next meal.

Baring more pain than I can handle,

releasing the shackles

I take that much needed step,

plunging into electrifying currents

toward the longing warm embrace

and desirous tender kiss.

Gouging deep into my gut

I gasp for breath again,

risking sanctuary,

trusting loyalty.

My spirit expands, lively clarity

calming my agony,

alleviating the pain.

Pain, so fresh and profound

resurfaced by a new angel,

I envision from the deep black

bringing what I see as the apocalypse.

My nemesis with the heart of blackness

forced to reckon with my demons

kept alive and fed by angst,

two forces tear me.

My faith is the test,

allowing my intuition

to reaffirm a trusted soul

already in place,

bringing to fruition

love again returned,

soul again nurtured,

life again to live.

Halcyon quickly revisits me;

warmth engulfs my body

lifting tension, dissipating into the night

I lean back,

rest my head against the pillow

closing my eyes.

Sensing graceful levitation,

serenity filling me once again,

knowing all will fall into place;

I quickly return to a tranquil sleep

fiercely gripping the noose

which tightly reigns around the shoulders of my courage.